Sometimes, I got so tired of even explaining why the hell am I upset? Do you know why? So what if you told them? By telling them won't change the reality, the fact. Welcome myself to the evil world. This picture above totally explains how I feel. Today, I chatted with my old friend. About shits that makes me pondering. Finally, I found someone who is willingly to understand how I feel. Although my words are somehow much contradicting, but finally. I got to breathe. Everything was suffocating me so much, I could hardly breathe. I could hardly feel that I'm alive.

I really do hate myself, a lot a lot. More than you could ever thought. I've got stories, that I don't wish to say. I have been in hurt, and hurt someone too. I have regrets and mistakes. But they are what memories are made of. It's so bittersweet. I'm sorry, I got myself tangled in the trap. I got my walls pin up higher than before. I know I'm selfish, for not giving anybody chances. I'm sorry, but I really hope that you're happy. You deserve someone better. I'm just someone who is not worth anybody's concern, care and love. I'm sucha selfish bitch, I shut my feelings down. I just want to be alone. But I hope that you will understand why am I doing so? Because I don't have the ability to love anyone like I used to. I can't overcome my fears. I failed through my tries. I'm tired of trying. Please understand me and forgive me.

Xx, therefore.
I wish you happy.