Just one mistakes, and it can ruin everything in your life. I've done so, thinking that others is good enough. Giving away my happiness, causing self to suffer. I guess everyone have gone through this if they really liked/loved someone. Somehow, some people will hold on no matter how much it hurts. Some wanted to hold on so tightly but, they are supposed to leave. "What do you do when someone you love have push you away?" This sentence is so true. Basically, I don't know what am I doing or even thinking in this two weeks. Everyday, I don't have to worry. I don't have to think about anything. Every night, I don't feel lonely at all, I don't feel like crying. The wind gush through me, I could hear them in silence.

What I wanna do now is to apologise. Apologizing for hurting people that cared. I seriously think I need to die, to clear all my sins. I am so sorry for what has happened. I know it myself, even a thousands of sorry couldn't help at all. But what I was upset is, everything is not the same. I ruined it in my own hands. Years of  friendships and everything is now gone. Gone forever. I didn't meant that way... I am not trying to gain pity or what so ever. I just wanna to tell you how sorry am I. There's a lot more that I wanna say, but I guess keeping in my heart is the best. I just wanna apologize for what I have done. I'm sorry. Even if you wouldn't forgive me, I wouldn't mind cause I deserve it.

 What comes around goes around, I am just waiting for karma to come. Someday, I will get it double back. Someone will take my good deeds for granted.