Tried not to lose you. Two vibrant hearts could change.Nothing tears the being more than deception, Unmasked fear. I'll be here waiting, tested and secure. When sins deep in my blood, I'll be the one to fall. I wish I could be the one, The one who won't care at all. But being the one on the stand, I know the way to go, no one's guiding me. When time soaked with blood turns it's back, I know it's hard to fall. Confided in me was your heart. I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me. It kills me, those pain.
We keep writing, talking and planning, but everything's changing. We all know what to do but no one does it. Now this time has passed and full of regret. Two in my heart have left me a while, I stand alone. When they get back, it won't be the same, It wont be the same, My life, you've always been there. Now you're gone and my heads spinning. Left thoae memories we once used to have. Moving on your time has run out,Wishing the clock would stand still, the world can wait, Wasting away once again, once lived as friends,As time passes by, regrets for the rest of my life,The ones who I confide were gone in the black of the night,Never will I forget you, and all the memories past,So rarely I get to see your face,Growing I looked to you in guidance.We knew that time would kill us, but you're still so close to me,To me you were my life, To me you were my soul companion,Now you are so far away, Nothing can take away the time and the memories we had,Come back - to the days when we were youngCome back - to the days when nothing matteredto the days when nothing matteredAnd I feel time passes by, regrets for the rest of my life,The ones who I confide were gone in the black of the night. As time passes by, regrets for the rest of my life,The ones who I confide were gone in the black of the night. This probably describe how I feels.
Come back, come back, come back. I am shouting your name. Come back come back. Baby where're you? Come back, come back. When it falls all apart. Now It's gone, gone gone gone gone gone gone gone gone gone gone gone gone gone gone forever. There's no point, there isn't . What cause this, lead to me. It was my bladdy fault, to even pick a quarrel on you. Or rather pick on you. Something is not right with me, not right at all. I felt so guilty. No one can ever feels how I felt at all. Never, never at all. I won't see you tonight, Yes, I really never see you tonight. I thought of everything, everything we once did. Read our text over and over, where's our past? Where is it? If you thinks I am not sad. Alrights, so be it. Im not sad, yeahs Im not sad at all. Yeahyeahs. It wasn't your fault. It was my fault that lead to now. I am feeling so unwell. I am freezing like hell, like fuck. I am wearing jacket. I am so cold. I need someone.. But there wasn't any. I was being dumb fuck for smoking so much. I thought of other things, past and now.... I was so dumb for everything I did, so dumb so dumb. Have you ever love and lost somebody? Dumb fuck. I was dumb, i was dumb. Dumb fucking dumb. I've no brain. I couldn't think at all. My mind is blank, blank. I don't have a goal anymore...I drowned myself with all those screamo songs. Was it meant to be? I've doubt you will read my blog so, i've no offences to type how i feels. I don't know what I wants. I really don't. Think, thinks, thinking, .. I couldn't help but held back. I couldn't . I can't possibly ... I cannot. I can't. i really can't. i don't know what am i typing. I don't. No link, really no link. Real sorry. Why, ... ? Why ... ? I cant keep pacing. I need ... You're so far from me. So faraway... I want my past , I want my past. I want my past back to me. Return me. Grip my hand, don't let go. It loose. It really loose. It loose. I don't want I don't want. Pull away this embrace before it's too late. Really too late. My heart was been pierced though glass of shatter. Sip my blood till there is nothing left for me to survive.I don't want to survive in this poison. Poison me. Singing my deadly lullaby was this true love was it? Was it too late to? I couldn't speak a word in text. I couldn't i couldn't move anymore. What's the point of posting all these out when i fucking don't even cherish. This love you gave, this love you breathed. Pierced though my hearts. I am speechless. For everything For everything. Do you ever remember this very long message you sent me before we were together? Do you remember it? Does it matters to you? Doubt so right... I was so afraid to hear my ringtone, ... i never knew we were broken into pieces.. Till ... Never. I never thought It was. Never. I am starting to recall everything you once said to me. Remember the day we met? Remember, " jiejie why you so many holes?" Do you even remember. I feels so useless. Maybe I am not good enough for you, thats why god made us like that. If I never ton, If I went home and sleep. None of this thing will happened. I am sorry for what I did. I am sorry for everything. I want nobody nobody but ... someone...


Thanks for those HeartToHeart Talks, I know what I should do now. Thanks guys. <3
Anyways, Baby and I is ok. Don't wanna elarborate anymore. ^^V