►Live ♡ die.

Bestest of the best.

2011-12-11T18:16:00.000+08:00

SUP! I'm here again, well, this time round. I' here to post for my bestfriend. It's random you see. HAHA. Cause I just miss her too much when we just got to meet up with each other yesterday. In this few years, she is really a very good friend and I love her damn a lot. Well, I don't know what to say but then this is a lot to say HAHAHA. I don't know what am I talking actually. But then. She's always so cheerful and I like it. Even though sometimes she will be upset but then I hope she is alright now. Fuckin' love this girl. I know this post is gonna be short but I give no shits cause I know she will know what I meant. Hmm no one can replace her place in my heart. <3<3. I love you dearest! Idk when will you came to know that I post this for you. Maybe I should tell you!?!?!? HAHAHAH Insane me, okay. LOL.

2011-10-18T22:22:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I got so tired of even explaining why the hell am I upset? Do you know why? So what if you told them? By telling them won't change the reality, the fact. Welcome myself to the evil world. This picture above totally explains how I feel. Today, I chatted with my old friend. About shits that makes me pondering. Finally, I found someone who is willingly to understand how I feel. Although my words are somehow much contradicting, but finally. I got to breathe. Everything was suffocating me so much, I could hardly breathe. I could hardly feel that I'm alive.

I really do hate myself, a lot a lot. More than you could ever thought. I've got stories, that I don't wish to say. I have been in hurt, and hurt someone too. I have regrets and mistakes. But they are what memories are made of. It's so bittersweet. I'm sorry, I got myself tangled in the trap. I got my walls pin up higher than before. I know I'm selfish, for not giving anybody chances. I'm sorry, but I really hope that you're happy. You deserve someone better. I'm just someone who is not worth anybody's concern, care and love. I'm sucha selfish bitch, I shut my feelings down. I just want to be alone. But I hope that you will understand why am I doing so? Because I don't have the ability to love anyone like I used to. I can't overcome my fears. I failed through my tries. I'm tired of trying. Please understand me and forgive me.

Xx, therefore.
I wish you happy.

How's life? "Life's good."

2011-10-12T00:27:00.000+08:00

I wish you: ✔ The best. ❒ were here.
Regrets, and mistakes I've made. Oh well, what have I become to? I wish nothing but the best for you. :] I've realized that life's not as simple as we are thinking, it's more than being in love. More than just studying/mugging. More than everything that we can expect. So what's life? I'm always wondering during the long bus rides home. Pondering and pondering.. So many what if popped on my mind. What if I studied hard enough? I wouldn't be in the state i'm in now. And, what if. Love wasn't about hurting each other...? Something much more simple and pure... Alright, that's almost all. I hope you take care of yourself. :)

"Sometimes it last in love, sometimes it hurts instead." -Adele/Someone like you.

If you ever..

2011-08-11T18:06:00.001+08:00

She used to a happy pill in our clique, the one who always say "笑一笑没什么大不了" whenever we are feeling low. But what happened now... She is no longer whom I have known. She might have gone through heartbreaks. But I have never seen her going so insane over someone she love... Doing all kinds of silly things just to make that person to believe in her love. Why, darling? Why are you so silly? Even though you might not think it's hurting yourself. But have you ever thought of people around you? We're extremely worried. I know words are easier to be said than done. But we just want you to stay still, you know you can. Come on, it's time to stop neglecting your studies. After your os, I will bring you to wherever you want alright? Please be okay, I pray hard.

It just tears right through me seeing what's happening to someone that is important to you suffering what you had gone through. Yet you didn't know what to do. Cause everything you thought you know would be different. Different impacts that caused on you. Different script. That attached feeling, hurting you so badly. Where wherever you walk, you can just squat there and cry...

This feeling.. This pain.. Etched.. Clearly...

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Scars remind us that the past is real.

2011-07-25T03:11:00.000+08:00

I need somebody. Somebody crazy enough to tell me I will love you till we are buried. Our bodies buried close together in cemetery weather.
How've been life? Have you ever been so low and down? Whereas people don't give a effort in trusting and understanding you? Have you ever lose someone close to you, not boyfriend/girlfriend. Someone close enough to you? Have you ever regret? Have you ever make mistakes? Have you ever been hurt and the scars leaves you phobia? Have you ever think a lot? Have you ever fear of being yourself? Have you ever tried to suicide? Have you ever thought of "have you ever" ?
Cause I do. Life have been bad for me, just probably me. But I am glad that I've got my awesome friends. Thanks for being there. I might not be the best or the closest to you guys. But... God bless you. Thanks for everything guys!

Believing is a trap.

2011-07-03T19:32:00.000+08:00

Just one mistakes, and it can ruin everything in your life. I've done so, thinking that others is good enough. Giving away my happiness, causing self to suffer. I guess everyone have gone through this if they really liked/loved someone. Somehow, some people will hold on no matter how much it hurts. Some wanted to hold on so tightly but, they are supposed to leave. "What do you do when someone you love have push you away?" This sentence is so true. Basically, I don't know what am I doing or even thinking in this two weeks. Everyday, I don't have to worry. I don't have to think about anything. Every night, I don't feel lonely at all, I don't feel like crying. The wind gush through me, I could hear them in silence.

What I wanna do now is to apologise. Apologizing for hurting people that cared. I seriously think I need to die, to clear all my sins. I am so sorry for what has happened. I know it myself, even a thousands of sorry couldn't help at all. But what I was upset is, everything is not the same. I ruined it in my own hands. Years of friendships and everything is now gone. Gone forever. I didn't meant that way... I am not trying to gain pity or what so ever. I just wanna to tell you how sorry am I. There's a lot more that I wanna say, but I guess keeping in my heart is the best. I just wanna apologize for what I have done. I'm sorry. Even if you wouldn't forgive me, I wouldn't mind cause I deserve it.

What comes around goes around, I am just waiting for karma to come. Someday, I will get it double back. Someone will take my good deeds for granted.

Stars.

2011-06-01T01:59:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wonder why is this happening to us? I don't know what's going on in my life. I find it a pity that it ends just like that. I don't know the reasons why did this happen. I just don't know what to do next in my pathetic life. I actually felt quite pathetic. I actually lose someone I love. To someone else... There's nothing I can do, feelings come and go. I don't know what am I thinking always. But I am really tired of these...If loving someone else you will be happier. Go ahead. I guess words won't express how I felt. I remembered every single words you have said. Be it those hurting or good ones... It's all etched in my mind.

Don't hold your breathe.

2011-03-30T16:58:00.000+08:00

I am finally going to blog now. First, about this girl... Sarah Cheang.Well, time flies. We have known each other for aroound three years plus already. Well, I don't have a bestfriend at all until I came to know her. She is so cheerful. Looking at her is like looking at me. But the only differences is.. I am lazy about studies and she is not. Oh well, I regretted not studying hard and nowguess what? I couldn't go up to secondary 5 and I have to take a longer route to Poly. I regretted truly, oh god. Gosh, I am still not over this. Its already Ending of March already. I dont know how to put in words of what I feel about Sarah, I can only say you're special. My dear! Xxx.

A raining day

2011-01-30T20:27:00.001+08:00

Days have been great. School is starting to be fun. Classmates are fun. Although I didn't got what I wanted but hey, I am happy that I am in the same school with b and the rest. And also although I didn't got into secondary five but its okay. I will work harder and achieve my goal ^-^ Tomorrow lesson starts at one!

Someone over there, thanks for the three months going fourth. Although in this love battle, we had a lot of conflicts and it somehow make us got dissappointed in each other but without fails, we always make it through and I am thankful that this happen. As times pass, rainy sunny and I started to realise something honey. I realised that day by day after it passed I had fell for you more and more, even its just one day of seeing you, I feel so happy. Sometimes love made me so blind that nothing can ever replace you. Although there is this phrase saying that "In love, everyone has their own temper. Being in love isn't easy at all." But I know that if one tends to give in, and nothing in this world is impossible. When I see you smile, the whole world really stop and stares around. Mostly, Nothing could ever explain this feeling I had for you dearest, love.

I miss you all.

Dear Dearest bestfriend, you know I miss you a lot even though I hadn't meet you for long but then I hope you work hard for your O's and lets meet in poly. Although starting I didn't have any interest in ite but now I have thougt through, I will do it, and I will make it. Like how mircale happens inN, my maths (winks.) Today I post thid and I want you to know that I love you and no one could replace your place, even how great the person is gonna be but no one can do what you have done for me. All the things you have do for me I am grateful and I love you my baby! <3

2010-11-18T16:29:00.001+08:00

Life is such a torture. I've decided to give up on sayong life is great since whatever I do, it will just be another disappointment. Life sucks real lot and no one would understand. I love my only lovely place.

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Sometimes, Goodbye isn't forever.

2010-11-11T02:41:00.001+08:00

eating chocolate does not trigger migraine headaches,
eating chocolate reduces the risk of heart disease and cancer.
eating chocolate does not give someone acne or other skin eruptions,
eating chocolate boosts one’s appetite, but does not cause weight gain,
eating moderate amounts of chocolate makes one live almost a year longer,
eating chocolate releases endorphins in the brain, which act as pain-relievers,
the sugar in chocolate may reduce stress, and have calming and pain relieving effect,

That's why I love chocolate!
It's 0209AM and I still can't sleep! ugh this is so irritating.

Here you are, Ms Clara! You requested me to blog you instead as I didn't know what to blog since I am bored! You'd better smile as much as possible. Let nature takes its course! And you'd better go school! HAHA!! ^^ Many kisses to you~

I also hope that my Sarah Cheang would sleep tight as her phone is switch to Airplane mode! Sleep tight hun! :) <3!

And I love you, xx Thx!

Fly away

2010-11-05T00:05:00.001+08:00

Well, nov is here. I am still slacking my life away. I wonder how's my friends. Work is starting soon. I wonder how're you guys? Have you all been fine? Do you all misses Friday? Just because every Friday we'd gather around during recess and eat together. I hope you all are fine. I am happy with life cause there's this happy pill that is just right beside me! Asking me silly question, many hearts to you ok! !!
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Etched

2010-11-02T00:12:00.001+08:00

Alright, I miss schoolmates. :'( I think I'd have to wait till December for results! Secondary 5!! Please grant me this wish, xx!! Goodnight!

Pig

2010-10-16T19:04:00.000+08:00

Hellllllllllllllllllllllllloz, I have been sleeping like a pig for these few days you see ): Life is boring and I have a stalker beside me watching me typing this HAHA. Sucha prevert right? Stop laughing to yourself you see, now I have another stalker beside me mumbling while playing with my iPhone :$!! Love you okay?! Not thatstalker that holds my phone right now ^^. Okay bye I am bored thus I am here. Now BYE.

2010-10-10T22:16:00.001+08:00

Just shut the fuck up. God damn, fuck it.

5318.) I want you to catch me. Because I'm falling hopelessly.

2010-10-08T00:35:00.000+08:00

"Impossible." - I am possible. I am done with National exam, I hope I can pass. /:!!!! Hee well life have been great with lovelies. ;) During that period of time when we are all having exams, a lot of things have happened. Well, I will treat it like a lesson :). People comes around with their mask on. Yes, mask. Nice and awesome mask, but too bad. You failed miserably. I am saying in general unless you are guilty of something ;)

They said, you said, we said, never. You and I, miracle.

- In a lifetime, if someone really likes you and you like he/her too, grab the chance cause'

life don"t always come with a second chance.

Sometimes, goodbye is a second chance?

Pictures was perfect, but memories scattered around the floor.

2010-09-28T23:02:00.000+08:00

N's so freaking near, what am I suppose to do now? It seems like I can't do anything it right. Whatever it's, people; good luck! :( Boohoo, bu kai xin you mei you!! I need sleep, sleep and sleep!! I am so reluctant to do my art paper 2. Fuck it, blame on myself. \:

I consist of rubbish, thus I am bullshit. I sucks. Bye >:

Chapter 02; Letter 02.

2010-09-16T23:12:00.001+08:00

Well, crush..? I don't think this is crush or what but then, I don't know actually! So well, how do I start off with it now?
So here it goes, I clearly remembered during last year 09's December.. I chatted with someone named; Someone. It kinda started off with a simple "Hi.." and it goes on like a fairytale and so, like every storybook. It has an ending.. it ended with.. something else.. We're friends all along but too bad just too bad. Something sort of ended our friendship. So yup. Life still goes on, so be it a sad incident or a happy one. I just hope that someone would sleep well, eat well and be happy always.
Remembering the moment we have got, the time when we laughed so happily, when people misunderstood us as couple(laughs!!), we had so much fun! I will miss you and your dog. I will let things go your way. Friends forever and ever. :') Thanks for the nine months of being sucha close friend!

Letter 1- Your best friend.

2010-08-15T21:28:00.001+08:00

Best friend... Perhaps some will have more than one best friend, but in their heart there's always one. Only one.

Well, I am glad I found my best friend, yes my best friend. She's always there for me. We fight, quarrel, cry, laugh together. She's just like a fairy god sister to me. Even though we make mistakes but without fail, we would forgive and forget. I don't know how long can this last, but I hope this would last for a lifetime. :). I don't know how to say how much you meant to me in this letter. But I know that you know how much you meant to me.

No words can express how precious are you to me.

Love, Alicia Lim.

2010-08-11T22:39:00.001+08:00

30 letters.

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Hush, it's alright. Just go on with the flow.

2010-07-28T21:56:00.000+08:00

Well.. I guess my blogger is dead. Ha ha ha.. Needs a funeral for it already. So yup, school's all about studies stress and coursework. Busy busy busy. But I guess getting busy is way better than staying at home staring at the sky.. thinking.. thinking.. of things. So yup, good luck to those whose taking the N's or O's! :)

What if we have never met each other.

2010-07-18T00:31:00.001+08:00

Our memories seems to be fading. You want me to leave, yes I would and definitely will. It's your decision. Right from the start, I said before whatever your decision would be, I would respect it and get the hell out of your way.

As I can't get the control of myself, I lose the faith.

I AM LOST IN STEREO.

2010-06-23T04:30:00.001+08:00

It's 4plus in the morning, and I have nothing to do!! I am going bed right after I blog! I hate holidays, it make me so slack! I can't seems to control. I hope that once school reopens I can really study hard! Don't wanna end up somewhere there.......................... :/ I have so many hidden feelings. Hmm, cool! I bought alot of foods home today anyway x). I like! Alright, I am gonig to bed soon! It's so EARLY!!!

(Y)

2010-06-22T06:00:00.001+08:00

So yup. Pictures speak a thousand words. Hiakhiak!

Loyal and honest boys are found all over the corners of the earth, sadly, the earth has no corners.

2010-06-15T03:28:00.000+08:00

We don't talk as much as last time, and there's nothing I can do about it. Life is still great. I don't mind anything but my studies!!! & my favorites! ^^. Alright, I can be rather dead here!! Follow me @Twitter.com/Tumblr. (Y).

*Sweeps those dust away from blogger.com*. Goodnight!

Love, you.

2010-06-07T05:41:00.000+08:00

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii people!! Do your miss me?? :$ I am sorry blogger! I was on tumblr :P :P. HAHAAHHA! Yesterday, 06 June. I went out for dinner with @SarahhCSZ, we had Astons! Hhehehehe, & we walked from Paya lebar to Grandlink and to Geylang and bus over to Bugis! :D. Walked around bugis, we wanted to buy COLD NOOOOODLES. But then the shop was closed! So we went walking around and went down to level 1 to see if our ice cream is still selling............ Turn out to be, IT CLOSED!! >: . So we went up and down walking around. We both got ourself something from level 2. So yup, went down bought our drinks. Went outside to sit and chit chat, and out of sudden I saw my body foam! So I jumped up and asked her to accompany me to buy when we was chatting halfway! HAHAH, After buying we got separated and that's when it's timeto go home! 0539AM; 07 June, Am still on msn with my @AmeriaIsabelle. She's such a cute ass HAHAHAHHAHA. (Y).

LOVE YOU, (L)(L)(L).

2010-06-06T05:31:00.001+08:00

Hey there.

Nice to meet you, I like you. :)

2010-05-31T23:44:00.001+08:00

Just stop bombing questions.

Let's just cuddle each other, be the sweetest.

2010-05-28T01:41:00.000+08:00

NEW BABY ABOVE!!! (Y). Not the hello kittty but speczxzxzx. ^^. HAHA. Okay am so in love with it. Look so greeky and nerd (Y). I am tired!!! I am going to bed after I blog, Hmmmzxzx. BB OR IPHONE :(. UGH!!!!!!! Okay, I am going to study tomorrow!! (Y). I have tons of holiday homework :(. Shall wake up early in the morning to do then :( :( :(.

“When things are bad, we take comfort in the thought that they could always get worse. And when they are, we find hope in the thought that things are so bad they have to get better.”

Note to self:

2010-05-24T21:02:00.000+08:00

Before you fall for someone, make sure they’re ready to catch you.

School's cheating on our fweelingz, guess why? It's because they told us that we will be having our normal lessons back. But what happens today was that we only had Mathematic class and the rest was free period. Han and I both spend our time on sleeping instead as they was only two of us remained in the class during Mother Tongue lesson. So here we goes... blahblahblah. I shall go on my tumblr. :).

Please.

Never will you know me.

2010-05-23T22:47:00.000+08:00

Well, Good morning humans! Went off to study with Sarah again at Town. Headed off to shop around 5plus. Got my classic vans! But unfortunately the another one that I liked does have my size :(. Is my feet that small!!!!! :( :(. Shall claim money from Daddy later XOXO.

Question.

2010-05-22T23:52:00.000+08:00

I had my day with Sarah today & friday, it's fun! Hohos, :B. And I am still alive. (Y). Sometimes I wonders how do humans live in the world where those idiots "friends" are around you. It makes me wonder, real lot. That's the worst joke I have ever see. @#*(^#)^# Okay, it's alright.

2010-05-20T22:57:00.003+08:00

12 signs to know if you haven't moved on yet.

When you think of the person more often than not.
When you think about him/her even though you don’t want to.
When you keep mentally reliving past memories with him/her, usually the happy/sweet ones.
When he/she comes to mind the first instant when you are down and out.
When you still have questions and resignations about the past. You wonder what could have been or why didn’t it turn out a certain way.
When you assign blame for the way things turned out, whether it’s to him/her, yourself or the circumstance.
When thought/sight of him/her trigger certain emotional reactions, such as aversion, anxiety, frustration, resignation.
When you keep trying to improve yourself because you feel you were not good enough.
When you have a desire to spite him/her, as a way of making him/her regret for whatever happened.
When you often bring up the person in your conversations, even when there is no relation.
When you have a desire or urge to contact him/her even though you previously told yourself you didn’t want to.
When you find yourself living out the same looping patterns. A very common example would be on-again, off-again relationships with that person. Or a lingering state of relationship that doesn’t get anywhere. Even if you are with other people, if the relationships act out in the same pattern as the past, it reflects you have not moved on. There’s a part of you entrenched in the past which is making the same situation reenact itself, just with a different person.

2010-05-19T22:56:00.001+08:00

How long must we sing this song?

XxX

2010-05-18T21:23:00.001+08:00

Bonjour, Je n'ai pas voulu vous manquez tellement. Vous pourriez penser que j'ai aimé quelqu'un d'autre à droite? Pour être franc, je vous aime encore. Que suis-je supposé faire avec tous ces. Je suis encore réfléchir si je peux encore vous devez faire face. Vous êtes devenu une crainte dans mon esprit, je vous avez manqué ainsi. Mais je suis le mauvais de jouer le rôle mauvaise. Alors bon, vous voulez vraiment dire au revoir? Parce que «Je vous accorde votre chéri souhaitent. I missed you.

2010-05-18T18:49:00.000+08:00

H3ll0 p30pl3z. Ha! I had sleep for very longgggggggggggggggggggggg, so cooling! But then school resume tomorrow :( How sad!!! I am so damn hungry :@ :@ :@. Today when I was packing my room, I saw this sweet little thing that Sarah gave me last year XOXO.

Yes, A card! But then it means alot oh!! Right, darling? :B. I know you will be reading this! Cause you stalk me!! H3h3h3z. I will shower you love~~ ILOVEYOUMAX. See you on Saturday/Sunday (L).

One love baby.

2010-05-15T00:17:00.001+08:00

Today was great! Head off to bugis and walked over! Did a little shopping and went off to study! Until dinner time, was actually gonna have Ramen but I dragged Sarah to pepper lunch instead. H3h3h3z. Anyway, tomorrow we will heading over to town and have sushi!! OMGGGG, HUNGRY :D. Gagagagaga!! Can't wait!! I have to sleep early and wake up early go draw money $$$. :( :(. Money flying, but who cares!!! HAHAH. Oh ya, one more thing is. someone mistaken me as Sarah! HAHA :B. Okok! I am on msn with Clara feng now :B.

2010-04-29T23:28:00.000+08:00

♥.

2010-04-25T22:42:00.002+08:00

I find it weird when I start to miss you.

ฉันหลอกว่าไม่เจ็บเลย

2010-04-25T02:34:00.000+08:00

Hello! Friday > Study with girls/ Drinking. :O. Saturday > Study/ Home sweet home & Here am I. I am obsessed with someone above!!! And and below \m/!!!!!

I was never good enough to deserve anything good.

Fml please.

2010-04-22T21:58:00.000+08:00

"ฉันคิดถึงเธอ"

There's no energy.

2010-04-20T21:09:00.000+08:00

Well, school sucks sucks sucks :(. Oh nevermind................... I must study man, I cannot think that school sucks. Ugh :@. I can confirm that I will flunk my maths badly. AH! Really gotta mug mug mug and revise. :(. Actions please, Alicia!!!! >: . I have art lessons tomorrow :/. I have not done what I should have done man. Oh well, shall do it after I blogged. Hmm, I didn't know that someone could be so evil? Wow, you can do what you want to achieve. Without thinking of others feeling, you call yourself a friend? To me, you're a disgrace, a cunning person. She forgives you umpteen times yet you just kept on hurting her? Hey there, you'll have your karma. Like seriously. Whats comes around goes around.

Reality is cruel, I have learnt it and I knows about it. Because I know what's going on. I will be cruel to what I have to be.

Pulling and pushing.

2010-04-19T22:04:00.000+08:00

School sucks, I sucks, my results sucks. But I must study! Anyone can help me with it?!!!? Or should I find a tutor? Omg, I can't concentrate on my works. All I do was surf network, text, day dream. Nothing goes in my mind and I have no idea what's wrong with me. Perhaps I should really lock my computer huh. :/ Alicia lim when will you buck up man? N's is very near yet you're still fooling around. Please study, ugh ugh ugh!!!! Without maths you won't get into secondary5! PAY ATTENTION MAN. >: .

KBAIBAI. BOOMZ OFF TO TUMBLR! \m/!

2010-04-14T21:41:00.000+08:00

Enough for now.

2010-04-13T21:47:00.001+08:00

Last five before I swtich off my computer. Well, I don't have a very nice day today so yup. But still, twin and others still made me smile. What's life without them? Loves of my mind. (Y). The picture above is someone make it out for me! Thanks so much, although you say it's not nice. But it's damn nice. Who would be so nice and make it out for me? I wanna tell you this, Hey twin, you rocks my life. ROCK ON DUDE (Y). Study hard!!! Hehe, tomorrow will be a better day! I brought sweets for tomorrow in case I don't feel like studying!

Outta here, and that trap of your heart.

Little notes.

Get me out of here since you don't care.

2010-04-12T21:27:00.000+08:00

Hello people. :(. I am feeling so not good, how! What am I suppose to do? Fuck. Sighs. :(. Opps, you just popped out :(! Well, do you guys have alot of things popping out in your mind? Have you guys ever got this feeling when you're very full but you just kept on eating non stop? Have you guys felt tired, real tired.. and wishes not to move anymore. Running away from the reality?

So get me outta here since you don't seems to at all. My eyes are burning me from these tears and your heart is so cold that I felt the pain. Somebody please get me outta here, as I lie awake.

Fights.

2010-04-11T21:10:00.000+08:00

This week was great! On friday &saturday, I had great fun with my girls :-*. Hhehee. Today is bad day, :(. Wen to doctor's and blah. I am going to sleep again, :(. Ugh. I miss you you you. :(. I love my ahcheang! Just to tell you, you made my day on saturday when my mood was so terrible! Love ya!

Same mistake.

2010-04-10T11:44:00.000+08:00

Everything will happened over and over, again and again. Just that it happened with different people. Everything will happen in a cycle if we do the same mistake. It'll happen differently if we didn't made those mistakes or does different things.

2010-04-08T20:31:00.000+08:00

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii everyone!! I am currently blogging while webcamming with Sarah Cheang! <: . Today school was a tiring one. I swear T.T. Basically school home sleep school home and so~ my life is so boring, aw!! ): . Today Mummy is gonna make butter ham bread for me! Yeyz, :B. Hehehheheh, k laaaaa. I am going back to webcam with her! You know what!??! She's damn noob :B. Noobiezx hor? :P. Yay, saturday vivo with her :B. Gagggagagag!!

Something's missing.

2010-04-06T21:00:00.000+08:00

Went to school as usual like some idiot. Lesson lesson lessons!!! Was damn tired like some idiot. LOL. After that...................... I forgot what happened you see!! HAH, I only know I love Sarah and my Momo!!! <: And my cliques <3<3<3! Lalalala! Nothing to blog today! Mad :(. I can't wait for my sun tan!! MEOWMEOWMEOW. LOL!! Act cute max.

I love my SARAH & MOMO PLUS CLIQUES <3<3<3<3!

To someone,

Not having you around was great!

I am enjoying my life like nobody's business! <:

I wanted to write this cause' there's no reason!

Just to remind myself that I don't need some good human being like you or yous? <: <:.

Gagaggagagaa! Karma is falling on you!

WHINE WHINE WHINE (Y).

2010-04-05T20:35:00.000+08:00

"Love is what you makes you smile when you're tired.

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii people! I am currently on the phone with Jess! Cool hor (Y). And on msn with SarahCSZ!! <:. Hoho, lovelovelove. Me love momo <:. Gaggagagga, be honoured okey Jess!! I am singing, being a live DJ! :D. I am so bored that I have gone mad!! I am lady gaga's sister; lady haha! Sarah is lady fafa! Today I have a great day! I went to meet Jess and Cin in the morning at khattib to have our breakfast with their classmate. After that we went train to Yck to have our sports' day! Had fun there though momo was missing in action! Haha, momo pangseh me dota in the morning!! Went to Amk with Jess and Cin after we was released at 12 to have our pepper lunch. Bought a top & saw Xiaoboi while walking around before we train back to Northpoint while Cin bused to Hougang. :). Walked around at Northpoint and walked back to 2tou. Find Momo, Bc Ck and Wilson with Jess and slacked! Bused home around 4! Home sweet home after that. I love my momo and SARAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love my CJKcliques too, <3.

Thanks for reading, byebye!! Back on singing and msn with Sarah!! <3

AWESOME.

2010-04-03T00:01:00.001+08:00

Hehehhehehehehh!!! I had awesome two days (Y). Rock on, kids. :E. Well, I forgot what happened on yesterday due to my stm!!!! But nevermind ya~~ Happy good friday to everyone anyway!! I enjoyed my good friday, not at church but out! Did you guys enjoyed being outside or church? :). Well, today I went out with Jiayin and Momo to town :). Walked around and accompany Jiayin to buy her flats! After that went to Marina Square to look for Momo's sister. Slacked and ate dinner at Long john. Train towards Yishun and cabbed Jaiyin home. :). Hehehheheh!! Tomorrow im seeing my semi-mum-dearest. Hohohohoho!! HAPPY TO THE MAX, MUACK MUACK!! Blog tomorrow, perhaps!? Shall go and help Jiayin blog :). I am such a kind soul ^^.

Aku loveloves Saraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, Clara, CJK and Momo!! <:

Those little perfect picture memories...

2010-03-31T19:10:00.000+08:00

Hey there everyone! Did anyone missed me? I bet no, ha!! Today went to school, and came home halfway due to my gastric acting up and headache!! >: . Went to the doctor, and gave me medicine. Yes, and I am very sleepy after eating those medicine. No choice, If I don't eat that shit. I will be dead! Life's not very good nor very bad or even normal <:! Hehehhe, Goodnight!!!! (L) (K) (Y). I love you to the max <: !!!!!!

Bring me to life.

2010-03-19T17:57:00.000+08:00

School's starting soon, <: . Great. Time to buried everything together :D. Looking out the sky, thinking of so many things that happens around us. There's no longer a turn back way or what. Oh, It's raining!!! Shall go and have a cold bathe then~~~~~~~ Thanks girls :-*. Your the best, muhahaha. WALAO, Jacqjacq is having Seoul Garden, making me so hungry!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. Im so sad naoz after seeing and hearing what huihui told me!!!!! Actually I am not sad at all. AHAHHAHAHA, RUBBISH. World's full of rubbish! WINKWINKS*. I am on phone with Ahhuiz. I WISH TO EAT SOMEONE IN MY STOMACH NOWWWWWW. HEHEHHE, HUIHUI KNOWS WHO AM I TALKING. HAHAHA. I am so hyper once I heard the name. Whooooooooooooooooooooooooooooop, HUIHUI WANTS TO ROB MY HOUSE. OMGAWD. k, I am being so retarded naoz!!!!!!!! So as Huihui ^^. BENDAN TO THE MAX, HAHAHHA. :). Being happy and sad is one day, so why not.. Being happy and spend the day. :). CRAPZ.

BENDAN IS BENDAN. <:

2010-03-11T22:59:00.000+08:00

Hehhehhehehhe, I am lazy to post!!!! SO BORED NOW. Omg!!! I am on phone with Bendan HAHAHAHH. I am going to bed soon. Bendan is stupid man, bendan says whatever to your. HAHAHA. K, I am being very stupid and lame!!! I want to watch movies!!!!!! Yeyz, I am meeting Sarah tomorrow!!!! Finally I did my art work!!! Third page out of the fifth one!!! :D!! Alibababbababbabababbababzxzxzxzxzxcs. :(. Okay laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, I am going offline now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bendan refuses to watch Next Stop, Happiness :@. The show is nice dao!!!! AIYOOOOOOOO. <: . BENDAN IS BENDAN (Y)!!!!!!!!!!

Je ne vous ai jamais dit que, je me suis ennuyé de tout de toi.

2010-03-10T20:31:00.001+08:00

Hehehehehhehehe, went back to school today! So happy huh! Heheheh, but thengot one ___ make me damn angry :@. Say I tie my hair very slow, and asked my form teacher for my name and wrote it in yellow form? :O. Who cares! Irritating guys *&$*(@$&)*(@^$*(. Fine, forget it! Hahah! Today SmashYou and I was mad, insane! Hehehhe! We laugh alot, real lots today! Doing retarded stuffs! And and and Curry drew me hand :(. By tricking me! He say three is three fellows! One is dumb, blind and another one is deaf! So he say when i want to stop, tell him! He drew line on my hand saying this is dumb/blind and so! When it is the deaf one, he drew one long line even when i asked him to stop, guess why? Cause he say deaf one cannot hear! LMAO and LAME ttm right!?!?!! I only know I was happy happy happy cause my biology!!!! (Y) Love it man! I love biology! Hohohos, :D. I forgot what I wanna type again, faggot. ._______________.

Some笨蛋 wanted me to blog long long long long one. Stupid huh! No wonder bendan is been called bendan. :)! Basically, 笨蛋 is 笨蛋 man! LMAOZ. Idk what to blog already! Goodbye!!! (Y).

EDITED, Did this out of my bored-ness!

Fly upon those dotted line ahead, <: .

2010-03-09T20:20:00.000+08:00

Hehehehhehehhehehhehehe, I am on mc today oh! No school for me! Slept till 9 plus and fell asleep till 11plus. Went to bath and had lunch! Used computer awhile and took medicine. I hate medicine, Omg. :(. Cabbed over to 928 to accompany three ladies to eat! Cindy went off after that, and the rest of us went walking around! <: . Went home around 4 plus after I eat my KFC. :P. Yummmmy man, heaven~ Came home after that! Nicopoopoo! I miss my sunflower :@. I think someone in msn is feeeeeling MOODY. :O! Eh, you better cheer up uh! :D. Hope that 笨蛋 see this bah, hohoho! Baiz. I want go see my chiobu already! :D!! Oh ya, I am returning to school tomorrow and I don't have to run for mass run! (Y) (K) (L)!

"There's no second chance in reality, isn't it true enough?

Recklessly.

2010-03-08T14:51:00.002+08:00

Thrusday's photos with sister. :).

As this kuku above came home late, so I cooked her korean noodles for her as birthday present! x)
Friday's photo, with Classmate/Cliques :D.

Out with cliques, had fun. Met up VeldaLim and co, great day.

Saturday was a great day too! HAHA. Met Yaxin they all. But I kept finding Sarah & Yongxin! Funny ttm. :P. >Dhoby>Pomo> I forgotten alr. :/
Sunday's photos! x)

Met Sarah and Clara for studying! Good girl indeed huh! :D.
Today's!

Went to school, was late for mass run. :@. I had to run extra even though I have muscle cramp WHILE MY CLASSMATE DOESN'T NEED TO. Oh dear, what the hell is wrong man? BIAS. ._. After running with Hq, walked back to class with Lala. Muscle was aching like mother fuck! *@^#*(@)$ Couldn't take it so went home during Chem lesson. Report sick and stuffs. Went to eat and off to see doctor with sister. I have to eat those awfuk medicine omg ): . K, I shall go die now. Bbaiz. :D. OH YEAH, an asshole wanted me to blog about this asshole. LOL. ASSHOLE TTM. :)

Survive though this war.

2010-03-04T18:19:00.000+08:00

I miss my brownie ): . Haha, that photo is took during July 17 2009. K, I am bored and hungry ): . Went to school like normal only.. Chinese some work, and I was a good girl today as I didn't talk to Mastermind. LMAO. Maths was a disaster, oh please. With someone who doesn't get the facts right, shouting at people. Hey come on, shut the fuck up when you're not even a piece of shit in the school k. It doesn't mean if your position is higher than us , you can point your fingers at others when you didn't get the facts right in the first place. Ugh. Had biology test today! Was quite happy as almost when I remembered came out! Hopefully I will pass man. Was slacking in school till the time I was supposed to go down for Cwo with SmashYou and Mastermind. Touchy confiscated as Dm saw Huiz using. Haha, served half hour of cwo and was been released. Met Huiz and Xianhui and we went to eat and took 804 to Northpoint. Happenings in the bus. HAHA. Hmmm, walked around to buy studs and went home with Huiz. :).

Am on msn with Sarah and Christella. Shall head off to my show? :).

Speaks though the silence of happiness.

2010-03-03T19:36:00.000+08:00

Hehehehehhe, I miss my nicosun ): . RAH RAH RAH, ROFLMAO LAA. I am suppose to study for my Biology!! But I came here to slack and enjoy my orange juice while my stomach is making alot of noises huh! <: . I shall study my biology after I blog. Today I had a great great great day!! Went to school happily, and had lessons happily till chinese lesson. I got a blue slip for not attending her remedial. Oh god, can't blame anyone but myself. Still, I hated her. But I got to thank her! First blue slip ):. So sad, tomorrow will be attending detention with SmashYou and Awyong after school. Hmmmmz, both of them got two hours; while this good girl here got one hour ^^. Back to tpoic, after school went to Staffroom outside to do my History corrections with Christella while Rl is waiting for me! As I asked him to accompany me! Hehe!! Thanks man though I was doing my corrections so damn s.l.o.w. After doing, had lunch at 233 and went home after awhile. :). Hehehehe, I am sad................ cause..... I spend my money for buying my watch! ^@*(@^$)&@#$. Now...... I have to save :(. Gonna study with Sarah and Clara on sunday! (Y). I want to buy that bag WOOOOOP. :P. I love bagpack, muhahahas. K, baiz. Studying time! Biology (Y).

Oh ya..... I think I saw sky like that in my mind!!!! HAHAH. BAIZ, BYE, BB.

Captivated

2010-03-01T20:59:00.000+08:00

Good morning everyone! Had a great day in school today!! Mass run > Lessons >Recess > Test > End school! After school, went to took bus with Catherine to Northpoint. Went off to Novena Square to get the storybook I wanted! Trained back to Yishun to find Jiayin and Cindy to have our lunch :). Ate and talked about craps! Madness. Cindy left first, so Jiayin and I wanted to go Northpoint to walk around before heading home! Saw Velda/Elvin/Ronghui at some Alibaba's shop. Chatted awhile and went off to Northpoint. Walked around, bought my pen/bookmark/stud and walked to Starbucks to meet up with the weirdos. Walked aroun and headed to Library for some reading! After that bus home! Ate dinner watched television, and here am I! Am going to watch television now! :D. I just dropped..... my itouch...................... (Heart shatters*)

Take it off.

2010-02-28T22:54:00.001+08:00

Saturday, :).

Woke up, and rotted at home!! Out of sudden, I called Cheang and asked out for dinner!! Went out around 3 plus to Queensway Shop Centre alone to find my bag!! ^^V. Shopped around found my bag and went to shop for food. Yummy! Went to Ion to find Shiming, we went over to Lv to look around! After that we went to wheelock place to find my Num bag! Found it, but idk should I buy! I have alot of bags :(. After that we went to borders! Was finding books yet we couldn't find! So we went to get some books to read at the children's section! She went off around Idk what time! While I head back to Ion to find Sarah! Had Prawn noodles for dinner at the don't know what hall! Went to buy Yami Yogurt and walked around..... Found ourself at cine so we went to cine! Head over to the neos! Took both of the machines we liked and head down to buy I forgetten what's the name! Yogurt too :x. Was a YOGURT DAY! We love YOGURT!!!!!!!

Sunday, :).
Woke up by Huihui's call! She told me she was at upstairs at her Ganny's house and she wanted to meet me! Wash up and bathed! Went out to meet her and talked rubbish at Roof Garden! Went up around half hour passed, went home. Took my things while she went up to take her things. Accompanied her home and take her stuffs, after that we went off to Chongpang then Northpoint to buy her things and mine! Shopped around and trained home! Met Mum, Sisters and cab over to Granny's place since daddy is coming only around night time! So we went there first! Had dinner and stuffs. Was bored and sister yi asked me to go down and accompany her to buy somethings! Went down and bought alot of things. Hehe! Went up to Granny's place. I made some dingdong below! ^^V. Coooooooooooooool hor! K la K la, I shall go back to Facebook and Msn and my history~~~~. Ah fong is currently very bored. HAHAHAHA. Love my sister yi & xia. :-*!

Raindrops.

2010-02-18T20:54:00.000+08:00

Am still alive............. Well, I am in love with sunflower. As for nicosun; rest in peace k!! Your presence lingers around me still. :). Shall go back to msn with some Cheangcheang, :-*!

Today sucks ttm

2010-02-14T23:52:00.000+08:00

w-a - n- t-s - - - - - - - --- -- -!!

Done!

2010-02-14T00:04:00.000+08:00

Good afternoon peeps. :). Had a great day today!! Woke up, prepared and went out to Somerset 313 to meet Sarah. After meeting her, we went to find some shop. :P. Like cool only. I bought the hearts, shall buy the rest @ Amk on monday when I am going over to Granny's house! Teehees! Went over to bugis to meet up with two idiotz x). HEHE. Shopped around both Street and Iluma. Bused home with Sarah after buying some alibaba sutffs. Steamboat with family and Sarah. (Y). Heheh!!! Bathed and sent her to the mrt with Daddy. Came off and my toe nails was re painted by me and re painted again by Sister. Laughs, she just painted my thumb now!! Madness. :P. 4 more minutes to Valentine's.

Someone is upset due to his taptap is jamming~~. Hehe, coolz. Shall go play my taptap like soon. WAHAHA. MY NETWORK IS LAGGING :/. Horrible ):

1, 2 and 3 roses. (Y).

2010-02-13T00:45:00.000+08:00

Went to school even though I had mc! I am sucha good girl.... :). Heheh! Went home after the school released us. Bathe and prepare! :D. Met Sarah @ 3.30. I reached early, (Y). That cause my money to fly too! Laughs. After that went to Coastes hehehe. I GOT ROSE FROM SARAH SUE SUE. :P. Heheh, went tanning till 5 plus and off we go for bathing. After that went to took bus to Lower Delta to have dinner with her family and her! :D. TOMORROW IS HER TURN TO COME OVER AND HAVE DINNER. (Y). No baking tomorrow ): . Shit it! Hehe, both of my precious pig is sleeeeeping!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-*!! K, I am missing both of them ): .
Byebye! The medicine is making effects........
I am so sleepy now! Shall go to bed now! Loves!

Reminiscing of thoughts.

2010-02-06T01:30:00.001+08:00

Went home @ 1 plus. Rotted till 3plus. Went off to Ssc with Xuan to study! Shopped abit and study abit! I know how to do my maths already!! After that went to eat and someone don't know how to eat oh. Went off to Chongpang there to have dinner with family and xuan. :). After that we went down to Town as someone's feeling.... hmmmz. Slacked and talked to someone else. Parklane to have macs, cabbed home around eleven plus. Here I am, bathed & blogging! :D. I want to put. b.r.a.c.e.s suddenly. :/ If I put, that means my bunny teeth will be gone! Alot of ulcers will be popping out too! :/ I shall not... put :P.

PS. I love my blue rose and daisy that is infront of me! Am going to bed like now!
Goodnights!

2010-01-24T22:43:00.000+08:00

Love sunflower. Hmm, so yeahp. Life've been boring. :(. Yesterday went Www and chalet. Was not tonning actually but.................... I still ton. Great, :(. I broke my promises. Shit myself please. Tomorrow is school. :(. Sighs! Gotta turn in soon else I will be dead.

Wanna thanks this human being for saturday, 24/01. Sarahhhh, this piggy took great care of me when I was like, you know you know... drunk So yup. :/ Thanks okey!! Thanks, Clara/Hannah/Yuxuan & VeldaLimchukang.

Now, off to my coffin.

Rest In Peace, Alicia Lim.

2010-01-19T21:52:00.002+08:00

SAD.

MUAHAHHAHAHH.

Goodbye!

14307.) I want to hold your hand. -(Even for seconds.)

2010-01-17T22:51:00.000+08:00

Took this omy home, hehe. Went to Amk library to study with Joyce and Sarah. Went home @ 6/7 plus after I bought my body foam! My fifty dollar fly T_T. Came home and took it again. LOL. I am so lazy to blog naoz. :/

I wonders what's wrong with me. I miss you so.

(U).

2010-01-10T01:05:00.001+08:00

Tried to take a picture of love,

Didn't thought I would miss you that much.

Good morning everyone. Met Sarah @ Mrt station. Ate yami yogurt then walked towards National Libray. Went up to Level7th and down to B1, all that Ahneh's fault. Damn him. Studied and we headed to fish and co. for dinner, this auntie pulled me in because I don't have enough money! In the end , we couldn't finish . We walked around the street, and she bought her bag. Went toliet, camwhore and home sweet home! I want that two dress, that jeans, that bag and and and and flats/heeels!! *&#*(@^$&*^&*)@. H3h3h3z, shall take money from daddy again!! (Y)

When you feels ignored, you thought you were in hell. I am burning in hell.

Watch me bleed.

2010-01-04T19:50:00.000+08:00

Do you feel aimlessly?
No one will ever understand how I feel, I guess so.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W-Q5t4Q26o0
I want you back as a friend.

YdkhIf,dy?

2009-12-28T08:37:00.000+08:00

Just finished watching the show 下一站幸福 latest, damn nice (Y). Monday faster come ):. Can't wait to watch! (Y)!!!

Since long.

2009-12-22T00:59:00.000+08:00

Yup, that simple. A smile, and a safe you would do. It doesn't matters if you neglects me or what. I know it's because of your mood, you don't mean it. Don't be silly, don't apologize for ignoring me as I know you wanted to be alone some time as like what Xuan said. If I were dumbdumb, I'd rather be your dumbdumb to make you laugh and piss you off. You should know when you're angry, it looks cute. Don't be sorry! Keep all your sorry. You didn't add onto them, :). Just brace up, and start everything afresh. Put those memories aside, when you miss it; take a look. But don't fall deeper alright. You must make it though, you can do it.

I miss you, sighs.

Just for you.

2009-12-21T07:27:00.000+08:00

Just one smile will do, please.

Please, just smile. A real one. Since long, you ever smile. A real one. For all this while, some was just fake.. Or even all? Please stop doing things that's hurting you. You really gotta move on, stop all these things! Alot of people is worried for you.. If something're meant to be yours, no matter what. You'll get those things. But why, are you torturing yourself? Just take all these as a dream, a long long dream. As a memories. It's better than nothing. You really got to move on! Look at yourself, how much have you changed? Just because of someone?! Please, get back to yourself. If a girl changes just for a guy, it's not worthy. Seriously. Please, just smile.. You need time, yes time. It's a matter of time. It's just we don't know how long it will take. Sarah Cheang, please stop torturing yourself. PLEASE. I just want you to cheer up. I don't like it when you're sad. I want you to "Zz" me, I want you to "-.-" me. Please, stay strong. Only yourself can help yourself.

XXX,

Why do guys tends to let go/forget everything so easily? Why is it always girls which is getting hurt? The world's so fucking unfair! Fuck this world!

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2009-12-19T19:44:00.000+08:00

20th December 2009
The Party Box, in her ever first collaborative effort with The Youth Empire
Brings to you Singapore’s Largest, most Extravagant and Creative Event of 2009

SOUND SERIES II
“Back 2 The Beats”
“The Official After Party of Swap & $hop 2009”
20th December 2009
St James Powerhouse
Doors open at 7pm SHARP

All in 01 ...NIGHT.

FLEA | GIGS | FASHION SHOW | PARTY

-DJ TOK and MC SOF (The Unbeatable Duo) who will helm the set depending on the cheers of the crowd. We heard they are a naughty pair indeed!
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And perhaps, just perhaps, an ending set by DJ Collette Claire Miles

The Youth Empire and The Party Box is supporting
The Kings Of Freedom Project and her messages
With SWAP & $HOP and SOUND SERIES II

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Therefore, we have printed a very exclusive Calendar Diary for 2010 featuring guest artistes and significant people in society
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We will be giving out special items to the public in Orchard on 12th and 19th December 2009
So catch us then!

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SOUND SERIES II
“Back 2 The Beats”
“The Official After Party of Swap & $hop 2009”
20th December 2009
st James Powerhouse
Doors open at 6pm SHARP

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Moodless.

2009-12-19T06:00:00.002+08:00

FUCK MYSELF PLEASE.

I'm sorry if I am the one who caused you to be so stress/fuckedup.

I am just someone who is making things worst. .__.

Off to bed, nightz.
Nightmare, nightmare!
I am coming to find you, muackmuacks. winks*

I hate myself, for letting it to pass by.

2009-12-19T05:02:00.000+08:00

"I wish I was a kid again, because skinned knees are easier to fix then broken hearts."

Till now, it's still the same person..Should I forget everything? Sometimes, things should be kept inside your heart. Si je meurs ce soir et la raison demeure inconnue, dites pas le monde entier, mais l'un amour d'I que je suis mort d'un coeur cassé, pas parce qu'il m'a aimé trop peu mais parce que je l'ai aimé trop

Yesterday, No mood to go out till dinner time. Went to had dinner with Icy and head over to Plazasing. Slacked awhile, and homed.

P/s: Should I go out or stay at home? Sighs.

I... I... I... really do miss your presence.

2009-12-18T05:04:00.001+08:00

I am back home, yeyz. Yrros to the person who I have argue to earlier on. I know your doing this for my own good. Thanks, my dear. (K). Earlier on went to meet Xuan and Poo. So yeah. Was whining to go home, and we went home around 1 or 2plus. Cabbed over to Admiratly. Sudden crave of Macdonald. So we went over to buy some macdonald. Went over to blk776. Ate and talk about alot of things. Xuan promised me something. You'd better keep your promise k! Went to took cab home and bathed here I am. Xuan went to sleep le. Stupid asshole. :x .

Smart SarahCheang. :). It's time to smile yo! I can't say much. Cause' it's you and your mindset. To why can't you move on is because you have loved him too much, or you don't wanna move on. You feel jealous is because you still cares. There's nothing much I can write. It's all depends on you! If you need one ear, I am here k! So cheers! It's not the end of the world! XOXO.

You and me, are just like the picture. Apart. Nevr say never, don't let me go. But you still let go.. FUCK THIS SHIT. I seriously seriously miss you. Tell me what to doooooooooooooooooooooooooo. Me don't want missssss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. AH. Words can't be explained! Sighs. I..

Alright, here to tell "Hey" how to do the effect. I do it by using webcam. So,
First, You'd need to click this(The webcam thingy) below:

Second, click the second button after the box(right side) pop out then it'll become like this,

Third, click the third button and click the effects that you want and press the "play" button to the effects, "stop" to have back the normal one.

And the end. Enjoy! I am tired, sorry if this is not clear :(.

Off to tumblr, x.x.

Don't. Just. Do You Understand?

2009-12-17T03:34:00.000+08:00

Basically, these few days I don't know what happened to me. I don't seems myself, weird huh? I am like a freak seriously. Who lock myself in the room almost 24hours. Just to watch show. Shows that's about love. Laughs, it's so cool.... Sometimes, even screaming don't help. I don't understand why. Seems like, you'd talk/call to me only when you want me to buy tickets huh. Should I be happy that you text/call me? Or should I be sad that I doesn't mean anything to you. Or even, should I make some lie for myself? Insert happy face. When will my eyes be bloodshot? Should I feel much more better that you're gone forever? Should I tell myself that I don't miss you, I don't love you, I don't need you; So I can forget you? Now I don't understand why am I in this state? Even screaming can't help anything. Nobody does. Hardest Goodbye? Or clinging on?

I should be better off this way. :)

Watched show "Hi My Sweetheart ep7, and Autumn Concerto's ep11 too. :) Latest! Arrgs, hope the ep will be out real soon! Rated, 5/5! Great show, saddening too. Made me cry so much! I think, I shall jump over to Tumblr. It's rotting without me! (K).

"Guys wants what they can't get, let go of something they get.

"Someone, tell me. It's time to say goodbye, and stop clinging. Before everything is too late to stop.

XXX.

Do I have a choice, not to fall in love with you?

2009-12-15T23:16:00.000+08:00

Was stonning at this page looking at the picture, for almost half hour. Have been thinking, thinking, and thinking...Wonders*.. Do you like looking out of your window, breathing in the air.. Close your eyes, and think of something new.. or the past? Have you ever think of what is gonna happened in the future? If you're moodless, you went out of your house. Holding a cigarette, walking along the river.. Thinking of somethings that you've been wanting.. If one day, someone told you, that someone told that person that you'll never be with someone. How would you react? Would you stay strong? Or... feels numb, wanting to scream, wanting to cry.. yet you can't.. I feels like screaming.

Today went out with my dearest girl! I went out to meet her at Tpy. Met her at Courts and she bring me to Snip Ave. Reached there, we was hopping around like mad people. While waiting for her Mum and her Sister. We rotted for an hour, and I wanted a haircut, so we went to the counter there and asked how long for the cutting session. After that, the person say half hour, Treatment is 10minutes. So..... Me and Sarah says nevermind. After awhile, we wanted to do treatment since we're BORED, BORED, AND TERRIBLY BORED. So we headed to tell the person and off we go, x.x. Washing hair the time, got one human at there laugh like mad. LOL. Then doing treatment, we was making alot of NOISE. Cause ah, cannot move. After that done with it, wash hair, blow and I cutted my fringe. Back to bangs! But but but, It's longer. After that waited for her Sister to be done, while her mum went to play pool. After thousand of years, finally she's done. We went off to MOS to dine. Went off to meet their Grandparents. Went breadtalk and bought bread and the star cookie in the above picture! After that, we went home. Homed, bathed and here am I. Have alot of fun with my dearest girl and her sister. I am so addicted to Doesn't mean anything by Alicia Keys, and Fight for this love by Cheryl Cole and moremore. I am more into my metals.

At first, I thought what happened to Clara. Why would she stay at home, guess why? It's because SHE SPEND HER MONEY that's why. She's so not the "pure" guai lo. :/ And and and, Sarah says I am crazy one ): . Off to charge my touchy and watch my Next stop, happiness :B.

For all those memories we had, you me, he, she, us.

2009-12-13T22:25:00.001+08:00

DON'T FUCK OFF, THE END.

XXX.

While I was holding on all you did was let go, sometimes memories the memories are worth the pain...

2009-12-13T08:20:00.001+08:00

Short post before I fly to I do not know where either.

Screwed up life I having... Gonna study hard for next year, sighs. Life's boring, doing the same things over and over. Heartbreaks again and again.
Hello, I.. Miss.. You.. :/. I wonder are you hugging that piggy. I wonder are you sleeping soundly? Well, seeing your smiles. Really made me felt happy either. :). I &!^&*%^@&*%&*(@ You laaaaaaaaaaaaaa! (L)!!!! I am off to listen my kiss the rain, and doing my art! :B. VeldaLimChuKang will be leaving singapore to malaysia today, <: . Takecare, old auntie! Drink more water, :}. Hmmms, to that xoxo. I miss you laaa, Will meet you real sooon, (L).

Hold my hand, just one more time, so I can remind myself why it is that I can't get over you.
I don't wanna get over you, can I? I know I can't. I know I have to let go.

Meowmeowmeowwwwwwww.

2009-12-11T19:44:00.000+08:00

I miss you, (L).
Real lots... :(. See you sooon. Off to bathe!

Meow plus oink equal piskkk.

2009-12-06T21:00:00.009+08:00

Amos; @ Wavehouse

Shampoo; @ Zirca.

Yesterday 5th dec was great! Uhm, great... Thanks everyone! :D..
Uhm, boring day..

Still on msn with this uncle. HAHHAHAHA. K, I am so bored. :(. But ite he still removed.

Why are you even upset when he mentioned me? Are you jealous? If you trust him, you shouldn't even be bothered by what he said. It's so obvious that you don't trust him. Yet you claim you love him. Funny. He choosed you, din't he? Lastlong, still. Oh welll. Umm.

Pourquoi soyez nous avons toujours voulu dire pour dire au revoir. J'ai perdu dans la bataille d'amour, hooray.

Happiest? Or sadness?

2009-12-05T01:10:00.004+08:00

Thanks, Yiting, Sarah, Jiayang, Tristan, Velda, Freddy, Dexter, Dominic, Samuel, Ahwen, Siyin, Jonas, XinaHui, Yuxuan, Tears, Jacqualine, Secondsist, Clara, Charmaine, Emodan, Bibi and dearie, Poh, Yingxuan, Singling, Francis, Jingyi, ! (L) for the wishes.
When it was twelve, someone called me and say "Im @ 467, faster come down~" After I went down to the lift. Velda and Freddy say Happy birthday. As well as Dexter, omg. Thanks so much guys :(. And Jiayang called, thanks some bo dee. Sang the song and blow, didn't really make a wish.. Cause even I wish it will never come true. So yeahs. :). They make cake on my face :(. I don't like, tomorrow no more k. Else I will cab home de! :(. I HAD A GREAT DAY. Thanks alot guys.. ( ONE GREAT WIDE SMILE.) :(. I can't upload the picture, Idk where the hell my cable went to :(.

Thanks, Jiayang. :). Thanks alot. BEST SOME BO DEE ALRIGHT! :D.

Editttted/ 1.27AM, Sinyi, N, Damain, Jiahui, Dearest korkor.

Vous n'avez pas appelé ni texte. Je devine que je sais quoi faire. Oui je sais….

Forgotten what's the feeling.

2009-12-04T17:37:00.000+08:00

Morning met VeldaLim and headed to Simei Ite. Saw Samuelllllllllllllllllll. After that waited for Velda and the guy to do exam and stuffs. After Samuel's things is done. He came over, well. We're laughing. Yes, laughing. :). We saw gay and we was talking about that gay. Hehehehheh! Someone is gonna be gay tomorrow 4 me :P. Thanks man :(. After that bus to houg mall. Walked awhile and headed home. Here I am :). Shouldn't have on computer. Sighs. It's alright! :D!

Kitty ah Kitty..

Where're you now. Have you been sleeping everyday. Have you eat. Are you missing us. Have you forgotten us. Kitty, where're you. I miss you so much. :(.

Freddy's phone effects.

Can you see anything? Do you understand? I bet you won't cause, vous ne vous ennuyez pas de moi. Vous ne m'aimez pas. Pas du tout. Je suis si intoxiqué à toi. J'ai donné votre bénédiction. Dernier long k tous les deux de votre. Tant que votre heureux. Ne doivent pas s'inquiéter ce qui se produit, ne doivent pas voir mon blog. Le manque I quelqu'un qui dit « I s'ennuie de la fille idiote. » Pour finir, je t'aime. Et je vous déteste. Je vous déteste pour me traiter comme ceci. :(.

Finally you had said.

2009-12-04T01:00:00.001+08:00

~~Sometimes, I wonders..~~
~~Do you still remember the days we spend together although it's just a short period of time.~~
~~Do you remember my birthday..~~
~~Do you still remember when happened..~~
~~Do you still remember how we used to talk to each other..~~
~~Do you remember those pictures we took..~~
~~Do you remember.. (<31!)~~
~~Do you remember.. me?..~~
~~Sighs, no point do you remember. Bullshit ): ..~~
~~Bring her to Marina Barrage. The place where you wanted to go..~~
~~Just read finish our message history.. :(.~~
~~Attitude shows everything.. don't they?~~
The pain that is coming, no one will ever understand. Why isit still so numb when I rant it out. Why. I just hate this feeling. Perhaps, like what VeldaLim says "Because, fate has chosen us.." Us to suffer, but why. No one understand. What happened to me.. Just a smile will do.. I hate myself for being in this way. Seriously.. No point ranting as things is still the same. Those dreams that is broken, is still broken..
Yes, forgetting is about willing or not. But my heart just don't wanna let go, what can I do. I no longer can do anything about it. I don't understand why! Just why will do. I don't wanna end up being someone crazy. I just wanna coop myself in the darkroom.. Letting all the sadness to flows....... Pain? :O. Suffering inside is much more better. Cause no one will step into your world. No one will know what are you thinking..... Come on, just do it.. K, baiz. No mood to type. Above is just rubbish! :D

GO AND DIE.

2009-12-03T16:45:00.001+08:00

BOOBOOOHOOO. :(. I hate myself, Fmwl. OMG. FUCK EVERY SINGLE PIECES OF SHIT. Just one tiny steps, I will burst like some motherfuckers.

Lonely kid, :D.

XXXXX.

2009-12-02T16:36:00.003+08:00

Be honoured cause your face's remembered. Just your two. :O. Awesome life I've now. Jump or Crawl?
人不像人,鬼不像鬼... 但笑不成... 哭不成.

There is one pain I often feel, which you will never know. It is caused by the absence of you.

2009-12-01T23:31:00.000+08:00

Ton @ Hougang Yesterday > Bused Home > Bathe/Prepare > Out to Plazasing to find SarahC and JoyceL. > Evening > Bused home.

Because what you said, was a lie. It was just a excuse for yourself. I don't believe. I don't understand why. If that so, why did all those thing happened? Why do you kept me clinging on....... Why do I have to change because of these.......... Everything crashed down. Whatever I do certain things, I will think of you. Why must I be so............. You held me up once and push me down..... FUCK EVERYTHING. Happy, that's all. Love's painful, love's a silly game. Love's full of lies, love's just a fairytale.. love's nothing, but pain.

Crash down.

2009-11-27T16:11:00.000+08:00

IFSD, CAHM. MC, WAISUAY. IWYTLM.

Love you enough to let go?

2009-11-26T23:15:00.001+08:00

I am hungry and I have a craving of hor fun which Kitty feed me that time, :(. I am sneezing right now. RAWRS. I am hungry, hungry! Should I eat Macdonalds? Hmms, life's so tough man. December please come slowly. T_T I have been spending money these days x.x. Heart is weighing something heavy :/. And I need shopping! Arggs. I need some ranting. Booboohooooooooo.

Take this away from me.

Why is that feeling so strong when I never text you for so long.

The feeling is so .. but still you will never understand.

Love's rubbish that makes people go round and round and got fooled. Gets so happy and emotional over it. Quarrelling over things, feelings fades. Is this really life or just a game that people can't afford to play? Why do our parents always lasts, but not us? In our age falling in love is really puppy love?

Big pig, you must study hard k! :). Done. LOL!!!

See you in five years time.

2009-11-25T00:02:00.000+08:00

Janice Kitty Wong Wanying.

Today's the 24th. You left us to study on 23th. For all the time we spend, no matter it's sweet or bitter. We, I, or Us will always remember. How you'd remember how we used to laugh, smile, know each other, smack each other butt. Things that I want you to know, is hard to be explain here. So we'll meet each other after five years and I'll tell you. :). Most importantly is, I miss you very very the much. Hope time will pass faster.

Love you always, kitty!

As tears doesn't rains down from bloodshot eyes.

2009-11-19T05:56:00.001+08:00

But I'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough
If I sing you a song would you sing along
Or wait till I'm gone, oh how we push and pull
If I give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful
Am I catching up to you
While your running away, to chase your dreams
It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
And maybe I'm not ready

But I'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough
I will try for your love
I can hide up above

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you're the one would you believe me

Perhaps, this is life. :).

Sometimes, I misses how close we're, don't you? I miss that 27229.<: . Always bully me, takecare uh!!! HAHAAH.

Should I be sad or happy?

2009-11-18T23:45:00.000+08:00

Dearest,

Don't be afraid because you once fell. As it's your part of life. Don't ever give up trying cause' that isn't you. You're always the stronger one, never seems to fall anytime anywhere. I know, we humans do breakdown. But I never want to see you fall like that. Just because of stuffs like this, cause you were never meant to be brokedown by this stuffs. I want the strong you, not the one will sadness that never ends. Quarrels and arguements, I hope you an really make us understand each other more. I may not have words to produce but I know you knoe my heart. I'll always love you like how goodfriend used to. What your facing, is life.

Loving someone should be joyful and not sad.

If there is sadness more than happiness, why bother loving as you will be the one suffering?

Although there's pharse saying no pain no gain.

But I don't think love should be this way.

Tell me why my heart isn't tearing when I heard these stuffs? Cause' my heart was dead long ago. I no longer feel any pain. Sadness that is surrounding my heart have already covered the pain. So don't leave me tonight, how can I say this out? I'll remember the way you looked at me. I love you, xoxo. :). Your sick, takecare. Drink more water alright.

VeldaLim

Don't think too much. I know you can make it. :). I know you miss him alot. I do the feelings. But you must try k, try real hard. (L).

What comes, goes. Love's bullshit. Silly game people always get hurt and fooled. :). Story rarely have happy ending.

I never want to hurt you, like how I get that feeling. That's why. A story shall not be starting. Story always hurt people.

Thank you very much!

2009-11-16T16:28:00.000+08:00

To my bestie. (No names is gonna be said.)

I fucking repeat. I hate

YOU.

For what you did.

Yes, you. Yep, you. You, you, you.

Impression is changing in you. Thanks uh! :). I am so sorry to say, I and my dearest friend can't afford to play your games. Your cool games k? :).

Goodbye seems to become usual word for you? :O.

Lastly, I MISS MY SARAH:(

Afterall.

2009-11-14T00:03:00.000+08:00

11th, Night time.
Don't really remembered what happened in the afternoon, I think I was at home till night time. Meet Velda at woodlands then bus -ed to green. Met Sotong, Dominic, Yiting at the coffee shop there. After that had dinner, and went to Jiayang's house downstairs with Domo, Yiting, Velda and Louti! <: Velda, Domo and I cabbed to his house downstair while Yiting cycle. And Louti running. Called Jiayang but he's still sleeping like one pig. Soda came. Slacked awhile. Cabbed to Yiting's house. :). Louti runs and Yiting cycle. Met Yiting @ his house downstair, while Louti met Feilong to come over. Yiting went up his house take stuffs, and we brought things up to eat. Thanks Domo for the Colesaw <: . Chatted, and play around like bitches and bastard. :x . After that went to cook sushi with Domo and Yiting. HAHA. After that continued chatting and played computer. Tonned all the way to morning and waited for his family to go out. We cooked :B . Yummmmmy~ Louti and Feilong are pigs :B . They slept! Woke them up after cooking. Ate and drank. Then cleaned up the mess together. Soda went home after we cooked.
12th,
Went Domo's house, :B . Slacked and tonned. His daddy's great, :B . His daddy is very cute and his younger sister awwww. (L). And I forgotten what happened :P. Went to meet Sarah and co for movies, and home. And out to Domo's house again <: .
13th,
Chatted,computer -ed. Beat, pinch, kick, jump, box, and slap someone and someone with Velda! LOL. And went to Amk meet parents walked around, buy alot of things. FOOOOOOODS~. And back home. Bathed, used computer. Facebook and stuffs ;P. Am going to bathe now. Hehehs. Silllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllys~

ME. HAPPY. HAPPY. HAPPY. HAPPY. HAPPY. HAPPY.

Happy Birthday, kctc

(Wishes you are always happy, and study hard. :). )

(56837, like a friend always do. )

Scenes

2009-11-11T08:03:00.001+08:00

LOL. HAHAHAHAHHAHA. K, I am kinda bored you see. That idiot saw that I am posting his picture, he says "Wow, like that liao lo" Then nowhe's currently emo -ing in one corner. :B . I'm very proud of myself. I have not been sleeping since yesterday 2plus. Hmmms, I have nothing else to say.

Deleted :O!

Goooooodbyeeeeee~

Do you remember.

2009-11-10T18:03:00.000+08:00

Du Hello. :B. Nice to meet you guys. My name is BOOHOO. I am very sad >: . My face's skin is peeling like motha fucker. Due to sunburn. But I like it. So yeah, went tonning on saturday, came back home at sunday. Stayed at home all the way till now. ^^V. I am sucha goodgirl. And I am going to ton tonight @ Fernvale. Laughs! :D.

To that person whom I quarrelled with. I am sorry. :/ Hehe, I know you'll forgive one right! :D!!!